All Change!!!!

Well were do i start??!!! First Of all Ill inform you on the job side of things…. Well I had been feeling pretty crap for a while with one thing and another, But Work was just reall really getting me down, The boss lady was a right cow bag n it felt like she had it right in for me, i was thinking is this really wanna do (again) N then with mark n his RAF decsion N the prspects of that i begam really ill with it all, I was getting to the stage where mum n dad thought i might be depressed, So in the end i just packed my job without having another one in the pipeline but mum thought it was for the best for me. After i had packed it in it felt like a weight had just been lifted from my shoulders, I cried some more but then things began to feel a little back to normal again!! So I havent had a job for about 2 weeks now, But My cousin’s girlfriend works for a recruitment agency n i went in for a couple of days with her last week n really enjoyed doing it, i have today had an interview and have got the job… Im now a recriutment consultant!! Im not totally giving up on childcare but i could never work in a day nursery again so im a little stuck, so im gonna see how this job pans out, the money is really good im starting on £14 grand a year plus Bonus of up to £600 a month so ill see what happens with that, Plus i feel so much better n happier within my self so surly thats a bonus that i dont feel ill n down any more!!??

House side of things- Well we had put a deposit down on a new buli8d in Warsop Vale, But the company Bellway who is building them have now stopped building the house due to this credit crunch n they cannot tell me when they will be starting off so we have nailed it in the head n are not having that house any more, (plus they still wanted us to pay £119.950 for it even tho the house prices have droppped so much) So now we have copme to the conclusion of renting for a while to see how things go, We have rang to view a few but they were gone already but we have got 2 in the pipeline to go and view so hopefully something will come up with those! We are doing really well with the furniture n that 2, we have got all the kitchen stuff, all the bathroom stuff, a sofa, a tv, wardropes, a bed n a table n chairs for the garden, so ill let you know what happens there.

Ive got lots cuming up to before xmas, Ive got Newcastle for Gem’s 21st in 3 weeks, then were off to London for a long weekend for Mark’s birthday in 4 weeks then on 19th Dec im off to Amsterdam with the girls for Kelly’s 21st so im really looking forward to it all.

Thats about it from me really, hope your all well too. speak soon x x x x

Feeling better about things n the hunt for jobs

As the title may sugest i have been feeling a little better abput things, IE so called friends. I have listened to and took into account all the advice from friends and family, it has all been really appreciated! Many of my family including marks sis Kelly wanted to kill them lol, I have started to only bother with the ones io feel are my proper friends and the ones that have always been there for years, im just genuinely not going to give the others my time of day no more, i think if it was the other way around n it was me doing to them what they have been like with me i know they would not take so im not no more, Im gonna be brave n stick up for myself for once, even if it means i have no friends (well from that group) im not fussed no more, like most people have said i dont need friends like that, were not 14 any more!! Thanks guys for your advice means alot tho!!

On better notes my bestest ever frind CJ is 21 this month n i have sorted out a surprise ight out for her to ches vegas on a boogie bus, well excited for a good knees up, should be great. i have also been asked to go on a hen weekend next June, It one of the girls that i went to Ibiza with, so think that should be another brill weekend to look forward to. O n my friend from school Jess who i hardly ever see (should make an effort really) rand me today to tell me she has booked her wedding for Aug next year, all exciting stuff!

On the job front i have found a fair few that have taken my fancy, All based around children all of them through the NHS on childrens wards and in the community, i have applied for all 4 n just waiting on the news, so ill keep u posted on that!!

O Massive Congratulations to Kristy whos having a ickle Boy, that fab news hun!!

Sorry again for the maon, speak soon x x x x x

First Liverpool match, N feeling like poo!!!

Bank holiday weekend was sooo fab!!! It was mine n marks anniversary (2 years WOW), On the friday night mark surprised me with ameal to the the dog n duck cos its my fav, Very very nice bless him, then  so i thought i need to get him something, My uncle then says if i ever want any liverpool tickets he can get me them, soo my brain went into overload and i told him ill some as soon as poss, He rang me up within an hour he had only gone n got me 2 tickets for the first home match of the sesson and to sit in the KOP, Well i was that excited i couldnt wait to tell mark, He was well impressed with me!!!

We went on the sat of the bank hol weekend it was soooo amazing!!! The pub before was even brill, there 2500 people in it i shit my pants everything was rocking n all sorts lol!!then when we got in the ground we were sat 4 rows from the front OMG i was loving it lol, that close to stevie G is unreal And Torres!! The game its self was pretty rubbish but at least they won, N stevie G got the winner, everyone went mental then!! Gotta say one of my fav parts was when everyone was singing ‘Ull Never walk alone’ Absoluty amazing sends chills down ya spine n everything, All in all a real fab day!!

The sunday was good to i went into town with all the girls from Ibiza what a night, Alot of alcohol n shots n a lot alot of laughs brill night, Really felt it the next day tho!!! So a real good bank hol really!

I have gotta say im not really enjoying my job , its so not what i expected at all, i have now sat down with mum dad and mark to think long term about what i really really wanna do, I looked at becoming a midwife but i know i wont be able to cope with the blood as it makes me pass out everytime, So now im thinking i would really like to be a midwife assistant or a paediatric assistant!!! I have just applied for a paediatric assisstant post in mansfield so im really hoping something comes out of this as im now really setting my heart on this job, the prospects and the job itself sound really good!! Ill keep you posted!! Also Ive been havingsome trouble with my friends, not all of them just a few, some of you may know what some of them are like but now its just getting alot worse, They treat me like shit (there is no other word to use) n to be honest i just let them, they are taking me for a ride n using me to be honest, they have started taking the piss out of me constanly, N it got to the stage where i didnt want to go out with them id rather sit at home all on my own n wait for mark to get home from the gym!! A little sad i know but thats how they were making me feel! I have been telling mark for a while now n he has since witnessed it himself several times, so The frday just gone, i braved it and went out….. Soem of the girls are lovly but the others started slating my sister (who is only 16 some of them are 22) so they were really getting to me n winding me up so i got up and walk away over to mark who was with one of my close close friends Leanne (she knws about everything) i told them what had been said n went inside the pub Leanne then followed me, we were then inside for a while getting a drink n what ever, i then went outside n heard mark shouting (i thought him n his friends were fighting) But no he was having it out with my so called frinds O days, He told the ones who were horrible what he thought of them n said they were ‘wank friends’ they didnt take to kindly to it n Lois went off on one at him so he gave her some more n in the end she ended up walking offf home!! I really didnt know what to do or anything i just tried to calm mark down but he was fumming. So we started walking up to the next pub n my friend Kelly came over to me n asked if i was ok, kel is lovly n cos i had had a drink i said no n told her exactly how my so called friends were with me how they made me fell n thats why i wasnt coming out as often not that i was skint!!! She was ace, she said all the nice things you want to hear when your feeling low n shit n literally crying your eyes out!!! The only trouble is im now sure how i feel now, Im grateful to mark cause i am cos in the long term its prob gonna be better for me but now i feel rubbish at the thort that they might now all hate me n be horrible cos i never told them n mark did, So imall in apickle big time!!!  Any help??

Sorry for the moan x x x x

Cornwall 2/08/08

 

Ive got back from Cornwall last sunday gotta say it was brill!!

Me Mark Danny Natalie Lee and Sian all went to Newquay Camping!! Yes me Camping!! For a whole week!!

Well we got there on the Sat n it was lovly, nice campsite nice location n nice weather, so the lads put up the tent while we go n get some food and beer, had a BBQ real good laugh, Woke up at half 8 the next morning to a mud fest, It was raining after that it never stoppped till the bloody wednesday evening, then it was absolutly red red hot, Bikini weather!!

When it rained it was awful, mud everywhere, idiot me only took summer clotes n flip flops cos i thought it would be nice n sunny all the time forgetting we are in england, I only had one pair of jeans which i travelled down in, i had to wear them for 4 days u can imagine what they werre like, Mark had to go n buy me some more cos they were that bad!!! There was mud everywhere, walking to the toilet or shopwer was a misson on its own mud right up half ya leg, it got that bad me n Nat went n bought some space boot things to walk around the camp site in, i even cried cos it was that bad lol!! When it was nice tho it was brilliant, red red hot 30 on the thurs n fri, we went down onto fistral beach the lads went surfing n us girls sunbathed wicked lol, we all got some sort of tan sian n lee burnt themselves tho lol. The BBQs on site were just the best lots of burnt food, lots of alcohol n lots of noise, ace!! we even had a camp fire lol!! We went into Newquay itself 3 night s n gotta say its fab so busy n in some places really cheap, proper good laughs on those 3 nights!!!  So all in all a really fun and laughable holiday, not sure if ill brave it again tho i do like my beach holidays abroad but we will see!!

On the job front its going ok, im not sure if its me for life in a day nursery its soooo different to being in a school, im thinking now about a school or being a nanny in the future!!!

its mine n marks 2 year anniversary on bank holiday monday, OMG lol we were going to springwater but i have got us some Liverpool tickets to the first home game of the season against Middlesbrough on the 23rd Aug so thats his anniversary present from me!!! Im looking forward to it tho should be good!

I have also booked London for Marks birthday too, going the 21st of nov for 2 nights its the weekend before his birthday but still nice to get away for some us time, so looking forward to that too!!!

Thats about it from me, hope ur all well, see you soon x x x xx

The Wedding!!!

 

 Last Sat (28.06.08) was mark’s sister’s wedding, N gotta say it was fabulous!!

The friday before gotta say as pretty hectic!! I sid (me bein me) that i would go with kelly n get her out the house for  Bit, god how stressfull lol, we went to have our nails done n went for some lunch, It was nice to spend some time with what could be my future sister in law but she was so stressed out when i got back i was just the same lol. Carnt blame her tho for wanting everything to be spot on for her big day!! The fri night me kelly, marks mum n some of the braidesmaids went up to mark’s house just for a few drinks n a chinese, gotta say was a fab night, good girly night!

Sat- i was up at bloody 7, was at the hairdresses for half 8, didnt even get out of there till 11 cos there was that many of us that went to the same place, Time i got home i was stressing cos only had 45-50 min to get ready, well i did it any way lol, I was picked up by marks aunty then we went up to marks house, very stressed hpuse hold lol, after all the stress everyone was eventually ready, All the braidsmaids were lovly n kelly’s dress was absolutly amazing, she just looked stunning!!

The church wasnt no where near as bad as we all thought it semt to fly by, the meal and the speeches where fab as well. The night doo was an amazing night lots of dancing, lots of laughs n lots of beer!!!

I was so drunk it was unreal, well saying that i think just about everyone there was, A well good night!! Must say good job me n mark stayed at Van Dyks cos i dont think we would have made it all the way home lol!!

Only thing is it was such an amazing day, i so wanna get married now, ( i have never really wanted to before) but mark was that scared about his sisters wedding he dont wanna do it himself, so thats that out the window lol!!

se you soon x x x

I have a new job!!!!

Well i have new job doing just what i want to do, n im soooo excited!!!!

Its in a nursery called shaping futures at the back of the stags ground on Oakham business park, its full time working 3 different shift patterns, mon- fri!! No more weekends love it!!!

There is one downside, the money is £4.60 for the first 3 months as a trail period then it goes up to £6.20 (which is what i am now) then after another 3 months up to £7.20. Im going to be working in the toddler room so it should be a blast.

Dont get me wrong my main ambition is to work in a school cos that where my heart lays still but this is fantastic for the experience!!

I soo carnt wait to leave tesco, really really hate it, i have sat and cryed like a bay all week at the tought of having to go to work, n i dont wanna be doing that!!

so i am really excited at the mo, leave tesco on thurs, then its marks sisters wedding on sat then i start my nice new job a week on mon!!!

Just a little update for you all  x xx x

IBIZA, the best weekend in a long time!!!

Well has the title says i have just got back from my furture sister in laws hen weekend in IBIZA and what aball we had!!!!

It was absolutly fantastic, the company we was with, the weather n the laughs just spot on!!

Met everyone at the Coopers in woodhouuse n had a mini bus down to Luton airport thats was a right good laugh, i spilt my KFC all over my bloody white vest tho, i couldnt chanmge it cos we all had the same tops on n i would have looked a bit daft without mine on, so i had to undo my case and get my yellow scarf out never mind it didnt look thats bad.  we didint arrive in Ibiza till half 2 in the morning we was all so tired we had been travelling since 4 the day before so we went staright to bed. Must say to say we didnt pay alot for the hotel is was really nice, basic and very clean and the pool ws fab, not to good for families tho cos there was just groups of lads n lasses everywhere making loads of noise.

Day 1- was really warm but a bit cloudy at times, we went down to the beach for a while then to he pool, at thepool these lads must have stripped off and shown us everything more times than i could count they were bladderrd all holiday lol, about ahlf 6 ish we all wnt for a meal, absolutly awfull think we all felt ill after. We didint meet up to go out till abput half 10, we all had banners on and dressed kelly up with all the usual takky stuff veil n L plates n that, we went up to the ‘west end’ as its called, absolutl;y ace never drunk so much ever!!! ended up in a flares bar brilliant, got in about 4.

Day 2, well i was very drunk when i woke up at 10, i couldnt even see straight, i was starvin so off we went to sub way best hangover cure ever lol, it was red hot on the beach, we stayed there till about 7 cos we all lost track of time, god knows how when there is 17 of u lol. we had a meal must admit a bit better than the day before, all met up about 10 in kelly’s room for some champagne, we were all dressed up for this night, must say we all lookws pretty fab, i was a school girl, kelly was a bee, there were loads police lady, surgeon and miss massage. we were havin a top night dancing on the tables getting free cocktails u name it we did it, then up raor one of the lasses we was with causing trouble with a group of girls double the amount of us, so off the go fighting!!! it was horible, kellys sister leanne ended up randomly punching some one that wssnt apart of that group, i ddint get involved just pulling them all off each other. ity really wasnt very nice at all, it really upset keely. we ended up calming evything down and headed for eden for a foam [party then went to the beach for sunrise, brill, got to bed about quarter past 8 in the morning!!!

Day 3- i was up at 11 still drunk even worse from the day before lol, today was 37 degrees absolutly scorchio, but ace, this was our last day so we all were sunning it for england, had to back at the room and ready for 6, we locked all the cases up and headed up to sun set strip, beatifull up there, we ended up at cafe mambo, we had the best meal of the holiday but it came with a price about £650 in english, well worth the money tho, we got 4 free bottle of champagne, 3 jusgs of sangria so that made the price not seem that bad lol, after the meal we all sat and watched the sunset, they say its a must do in ibiza i can see why really was stuning, then there were fire shows and all sorts up there u can see why its so expesive. we then headed back to the hotel to be picked up at 11, we didnt fly till 1.55 am, i ddint get home from luton airport till 7.45 am the day after horrible flight times that was the only down fall, but all defo worth it!!! We all had the best weekend evr, just bring on the wedding now 1 week on sat!! Hope ya like the pics abovelol.

Just gotta say my dress for the wedding is now finished,above, looks so much on than off tho ( i havehad it made. im not a bridemaid, just wanted something i couldnt find anywher) it is stunning love it, all for £80 so carnt maon for that. ill pop pics on from the wedding after the wedding.

the interview went well but the didnt think i had enough experience so im just gettin rather fed up now I have nearly 18 months experience as well haqs looking after family and frinds childrn since age 12. never mind, mum keeps sayin there will be something out there for me.

sorry its a long one, speak soon x x x xx

A holiday n a job interview!!!

Sorry its been ages again i just have been sooo busy!!

Im really really looking forward to Ibiza, i know its only for 4 days but i just carnt wait to chill all day n get a sun tan while i do it. We go on thursday n im on the count down, ill fill you in on the events when i get back lol.

So as it says i have got a job interview for little millers at the hospital, 30 hours a week on band 3, so i think i could llike it, even if its just for the experience, i must say tho i am quite nervous, so ill inform you of the outcome after the interview which ids on weds at 12!!!

Marks sisters wedding!!!! This is goving me sooo much stress n its not even my wedding, I have no dress yet as i am having it made, only cos i eally fell in love with a dress in monsoon but it was £250 n that such a lot of money, well my sis had her prom dress made and the lady said she could make me one like wha i had seen in silk for abou £70-80, so i agreed. I still hve not had my first fitting cos she keeps changing it and she gets married 3 week today!!!! i had a night mare with shoes, cos my dress is cream and navy n i really wanted navy shoes, could i find any any where NO!!! So i then picked some cream ones from next, could i get them from a next shop or on the net NO!!! so marks sis kelly found me them at next in Notts along with a bag to match so that was a massive relief lol. I just think im stressing out so much cos half of the people going i have never met n i wanna make sure i look nice for mark, mark is a user and he looks fab in his suit. ill po9s some pics after the wedding day.

The house!!! Well it all seems to be going well the foundations are now down and in place so i suppose that is a good thing, we have also started our saving, we have set up a direct debit from each of our accounts into a joint one so at least we will save. We have also been buying little things only stuff like a tin opener n that, but were so excited we just wanna move in now lol.

so thats about it from me, Apart from must say a massive congratulations to Kristy  on her fab news, u so deserve all ths happiness in your life its fab!!!

see ya soonies x x x

A brill night and count down for IBIZA!!!

Im so rubbish at keeping my blog up to date, its working full time its killing me im in bed by about 9 everynight lol.

Went to Bistro live on Saturday for Mark’s sister Kelly’s Hen night, What a fab place!!! It is so not what i expected at all it must be one of the best nights out i have had in a long long time, A defo must do girlies!! We paid 30 pound to go, we had a 3 course meal when we got there, while we were eating there was a band on a mowtown band top music, after that there was a music quiz  which we all won!!! got a fiver of each for another vist) Then the band came on again then about half 11 til about 1 half 1 there was disco. Also after the meal all the tables were cleared and everyone was up ancing and all sorts proper good!! I went with marks mum n auntie n my 2 friends so we had a right good giggle, and there was lots of beer flowing all ya could have was jugs we had loas lol!!! Kelly (the hen) wasquite drunk and seemed to have a good night and so did we so all in all a real good night!!

Now its the count down for hen night number 2, 4 days in IBIZA sooo excited!!! this time in 3 weeks ill be on my way!!!

Update on the house side of things we have put some money down on the plot we wanted and it will be ready roughly about next May, they just ring us when the plot is realesed to make sure we still want it and that sooo excitred. We have started to buy just little bits like knifes and folks and a tin opener just so we dont have to get it all in one go and so it dosent cos a bomb all in one go.

The job is not going that bad but i do think it will get boringonce i have settled in but we will see i suppose, On the childcare side of things i am still looking and applying for jobs but no look  i really wanna find one so if ya know n e where please let me know.

Thats it from me see ya soonies x x x

 

Sorry its been a long time

Im getting so rubbish aremembering to blog recently, sorry!!1

Not really been up to much since the last time, Had a fab birhday and was sooo spoilt, didnt think much to sheffield at all if im honest a bit to spaced out, never mind tho was a good night with lots of alcohol!! The weekend after that we went down town, not been town for over 2 months so had a really good night, there was just me , lois, holly n kay but it was such a laugh, i was o drunk that i tripped over my own feet n spilt my chips n gravy all over me lol!!!

Bank holiday weekend was a good laugh, went to our friends house for drinks on the fri, Sat went to another friends BBQ which was a really laugh, Mark was singing on the Karaoke n all sorts, sunday just a chill out n Monday got bladdered lol. Wasnt very ahppy on the nda tho cos mark n just about all my friends went down town n i was skint so i sat in all my own .

In all that me n mark have been looking at Houses!!! Seen a new build one in Warsop Vale, love it reall my heart on it, But the plot we want wont be ready for about 12 month so that is giving us all the time in the world to save, so were off to sort out the savers at the weekend and to put an early bird deposit down on the plot sooo excited!!!

Also found out today that i will defo be starting my full time job at tesco a week on tues im not looking forward to it at all, i am for the money cos now we want ahouse we need it but i HATE the place!! Sent my CV off to some local schols yeasteday so just hoping something comes off one of those, so fingers crossed!!

Just gotta say im loving this sunshine, just hope it lasts till the weekend for Danny n NAts BBQ!! O n were booking a holiday yeah!!! To Cornwal in Augl!! Me , mark, Danny n NAt so should be good.

Thats all from me catch ya soon x x x